I’ve got a friend in Me Part 3: Lights, Camera, Laugh

“Seems the only one who doesn’t see your beauty                                                                           Is  the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you’re not pretty                                                                             But that’s not true 

… And you’re tied together with a smile
But you’re coming undone.
”  —Taylor Swift, ‘Tied together with a smile”

Dear Self,

It’s that time of year again when you add an extra number to your age,  but I really don’t think I have to tell you though because you remind me of that exciting little detail like three times a day.

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I’ve got a friend in me Part 2: Learning to be my own hype-team

“All that you need to love is in front of your eyes” -Josh Groban.

Dear Self,

This is my first attempt at writing you a letter. Ever. No, wait, I wrote you a letter when I was thirteen during a school camp as part of a ‘self-growth’ activity. The task was to write a letter addressed to ourselves listing areas of our life or character that we wanted to change or work on. Then we were instructed to put it in an envelope and open it again at the end of the year, ‘marking our progress’. Novel idea.

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I’ve got a Friend in Me: The diaries of my journey to self-loving

***It’s a Saturday night. I’m at my friend’s house and we’re getting ready to go out. “Aaah I look so fat and ugly!” my friend suddenly blurts out, her arms flailing frantically in the air as she wrestles with her dress in a desperate attempt to get it off her decidedly ‘too fat’ body. “There is no way I can wear this dress out tonight, I look like a fat old frump,” she exclaims, flinging the dress onto a heaped pile of clothing that she’s already deemed unfit. 

“Yes, you’re too fat,” I encouragingly egg her on. “You’re probably better off just wearing a tent or an XXXL t-shirt to cover that blob of a body. You shouldn’t have eaten that second slice of cake at lunch. Why the hell did you have a second helping? As if one piece wasn’t already pushing it. Can’t you just learn some self-control, other people can say no. Why can’t you? No wonder you look so fat and ugly,” I add, just to make her feel better about herself knowing that I share her same sentiments regarding her body image, because don’t we all want to feel understood and accepted?***

The above scenario never actually happened. Well, of course, it didn’t! Because any half decent friend with half a brain would NEVER respond like that to someone they care about.

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